If Only I Knew

If only I knew....

This year started with a lot of new things.

The end of January 2024 I moved to a new part of Florida. A New Town in a Newly built house. We were first time Homeowners and it was super exciting.

Soon followed a new job in a field I was completely unfamiliar with. Everything was extremely new. Full of promise and adventure.

When it came down to deciding which color to paint my new Witchy room, I tossed between many colors, but for some reason.....I kept feeling RED.

A Power color I told myself. A nod to one of my favorite Love/Hate songs "Blackout In The Red Room." for fun.

But underneath all that....The truth is, every time I closed my eyes...It was RED I gravitated towards, so I followed it. There was just no ignoring it. So Red it was!

Over the next few months, Everything seemed so surreal. I was trapped in this liminal space. In disbelief that this house was actually mine. As well as the scariness of being in an unfamiliar town and a job that was completely foreign to me.

Then there was my Witchcraft. I spent time building this beautiful Red Room, to not yet feel......"at home" in it. But as my lazy ass does....I ignored it at moved on, focusing on the other tasks at hand.

Then Summer came and things started to move, and when I say move, i mean something very prominent was trying to get my attention. Something or perhaps, someone.

It started with the dreams. The very strange lucid dreams. One in particular stands out to this day. I woke up crying...

I must have been crying in the dream, but this dream was so real that I was actually doing it, I was actually crying and woke up doing so.

That was the first night that my Tower started to Crack.....That was the first night that I woke up......at 3:33am. I ignored it all the next day.....

But If only I knew.